As I sit in bed, with both my babies and my amazing husband around me, I am overcome with a wave of gratefulness. I remember just a few years ago, I was hanging out, partying and enjoying life as an independent single mom. I had grown so much and was just enjoying me....every testimony and triumph, every imperfection. I was IN LOVE with myself and that is what lead my husband to me. I no longer needed to feel validated by anyone or anything. And I was no longer bound by the abuse, heartache or bouts of low self esteem that I had endured. I was everything that I needed. I wasn't even looking for love! Seriously, I didn't even realize that our first date was a date!! lol And when he proposed 4 months later, it took me awhile to process that this was my time. I had always believed that "A man who finds a wife finds a good thing." And even though I had fallen in love with myself, I hadn't given much thought to me being someone's "good thing".
Fast forward to today, just a little over a year later and again I feel that same contentment that I felt when I was single. I am filled daily by the smiles on the faces of the ones that I love. I feel secure knowing that I didn't "create" this life based on my own wants but that I aligned my thoughts with the plan that God already had for me. I spoke and walked and lived in my purpose, on purpose, and only then could I feel content and live intently.
I share all this to say, FALL IN LOVE WITH YOURSELF!! Forgive yourself. Forgive others who may have hurt you. Step away from people or things that you know are no longer beneficial (or may have never been beneficial) to your life. Be honest with yourself about EVERYTHING. Tell others how you feel and don't apologize for it. Live within your means, mentally, emotionally and financially. Don't allow yourself to be stretched so thin. And do what makes you happy.
There is no rule book that says when you should feel, do, or live a certain way. Holding yourself hostage to the idea that you have to keep up with standards set by others only hurts you more. Enjoy your life as is! Trust that you are exactly where you are supposed to be. And let things happen...don't force it! Walk in YOUR purpose, even if it is hard at this moment, because being authentically you and truly happy is one of the greatest feelings in the world!!
Enjoy your Sunday!
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